Well it’s been a while since I actually wrote anything on here. Part of me regrets not taking more time to write but I’ve been so busy since I last made a post. Over Christmas I had 39 hour weeks and it was manic and when I did have days off I spent them sorting my flat or meeting friends and basically ditched the internet and my laptop for a while. So now I’m on my first proper holiday for the first time in 9 months I thought I’d review my progress and attempt to get back to posting more regularly on here.
So gutpunching 2014 went well. In the time I’ve been living by myself I have become more confident with cooking which is something I’d had little experience with before I moved out. I also manage to fit cleaning my flat, cooking and doing my food shop all around work. Even when I had hectic 39 hour weeks and at one point I worked 12 days in a row and I still managed it. It surprises me because in March 2014 my ex-boyfriend told me he didn’t think I would be able to cope with it all. And part of me thought he was right. Though in hindsight I should have realised A) He is full of shit and B) That my friends and family know more than him. Particularly Debbimouse who told me time and time again that he is wrong. So I have successfully managed to do all this and since the end of my relationship with him nearly one year ago and in that time I’ve only had four anxiety attacks when back in March last year I was having at least four a week. I have also found that since I’ve moved out my self confidence has increased and that I’m just generally happier.
I also started kind of seeing someone. It’s not a relationship relationship, however I find it agrees with me better than my last relationship did. Maybe its the difference in people or maybe it’s that and the set up. I don’t feel rushed or pressured into doing things or saying things we just eat, watch movies and tv shows, and cuddle for the most part. It’s nice, relaxed and I like it. However he just lost his job and he might have to move back to his mum’s which is in a city which is ages away from the town we live in. So unless he gets another job then I might never find out where this whole thing was heading, which will be kind of gutting. I don’t really know how to feel about it, as there’s still a chance he might not have to. But if he doesn’t this whole thing could end around the end of March or in April. And right now I really don’t want that to happen. But there is nothing I can do to stop it from happening.
Moving on to things I can control, my increased hours at work lead to my weight dropping to 9 stone 3 pounds which for me at 5’10” is basically the lowest weight I could be before becoming underweight and before Christmas I could only manage to maintain 10 stone at the most. Since January however I’ve been managing to maintain around 10 and a 1/2 stone, which has been my target weight since I found out I nearly crossed into the underweight range of my BMI. So I am proud that I’ve been my target weight for nearly 2 months. My next step is toning up and improving my overall fitness.
Other than improving my fitness, my goals for gutpunching 2015 include passing my driving test, completing becoming a team leader, improving my cooking skills further, getting my flat to the place I want it to be, and making time for creative projects and this blog. So hopefully I can gutpunch this year into shape too.